TheatreGirl

I can't help but think right now about how stupid I've been the past few years. I thought my life was set. I knew where I was going and what I was doing, and now.... I just don't. here I am... single... for the first time in two years, and I don't want to be. I would give anything not to be. I'm so alone, and lost, and I have so many questions and not enough answers and I just don't know what to do with myself anymore. I don't know how to tell my family, or my friends, but I guess facebook will do that for me. I can't help but feel like everyone's lives are just starting and mine's ending.

I don't even know what I'm going to say here... I just feel the need to express something. I am in total amazement of life right now. So many things can co-exist together on this earth and it's just beautiful. yes, it's horrible how humans have treated this planet and everything on it and eachother, and it's horrible that so much of the river I'm looking at right now is developed without the natural habitat it deserves, but the fact that a red fox can stand just feet away from me, separated by a window pane, and co-exist with me for that moment is just beautiful. I'm a little annoyed right now that as I'm talking about this there is currently

I still hurt so much when I think about you. Why the hell did you leave me here alone. You were always there to look out for me. When I had no where to go, I went to you. Remember that summer I practically lived at your house, remember how much fun we had. Everywhere I went, I never belonged, but you made me belong. You made people like me because I was cousin. You made me feel important. You cared unconditionally, like no other, closer than a brother. How the hell could you leave me here. Just days before you were gone, I was walking downtown, thinking about the future. I remember thinking that when I get married and have kids Uncle Luke wou